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bellmer doll

nonno

 

 

 

 

 

i think this ended up looking a little creepy, which wasn’t the intent.

it was supposed to be a portrait of my nonnno, done in a way to reference looking up at a monument.

but the lack of eyes changes the meaning.

 

caffinator

in the past 72 hours i have consumed approximately

• 12+ shots of espresso in various forms

and

• 6 cups of coffee

twentyfive

so. on facebook, there is this thing where people post a note describing 25 random things about themselves.

i want to do it, but i dont want to post it on facebook, so i will post it here.

1. i’ve always wanted one of those phones that is shaped like a big pair of lips.
2. i hold grudges.
3. working for starbucks is one of the best things that has ever happened to me.
4. i enjoy watching curious george in the mornings, makes me want a pet monkey
5. i want to teach university..but don’t know if i have the discipline to get a masters, phD and a doctorate :s
6. i can be realllly mean
7. i don’t listen to half the music i have on my computer
8. my condiment of choice is sour cream. does that count as a condiment?
9. i have an obsession with clue..the movie / game anything clue related.
10. i have never seen titanic….nor have the desire to.
11. i buy many books…but don’t read them. i think they’re just nice to have.
12. i regret going into my university program pretty much everyday i am on campus.
13. i don’t like to disappoint people.
14. i have some friends who i have only chatted with online…and have never met in person.
15. i feel disgusting when i’m eating ribs…because i wouldn’t want someone to do that to me, but i will eat them every once in a while.
16. i loathe people who drink protein shakesWHILE they are working out…or those who talk on their cell phones on the treadmill.
17. i am a very good liar.
18. i wish i was a better artist.
19. i’ve dreamt of being a professional tennis player.
20. i get mad when classes are cancelled, because i’m paying for them. I also skip class and dont read 80$ textbooks.
21. i wish i wasn’t such a private person.
22. I love brock…but i wish i didn’t live at home.
23. i like to watch biggest loser because i’m the after.
24. i’m insecure.
25. i really love the colour of my eyes and wouldn’t give it up for anything.

ten second portrait

i’m so fucking crafty.

i love my job

 

so, yes, i have drank the kool-aid ( or should i say the coffee). I love being a barista at starbucks. I was a drinker before working there, but actually working for them gives a new insight to the company and i have never worked for a company that treats their employees better.

The company is good as a whole but my location is what makes me love my job. My manager has put together an awesome team, and with the majority of us being new, it could have been disastorous, but it wasn’t. He has created such a comfortable environment, as cheesy as it sounds. I feel myself when i’m there, maybe because we all have such open personalities. I know that i will never get sick of this job.

class and ass

Today in photography class we were studying controversial photography, specifically looking at Serrano and Mapplethorpe. Most of the photos were classically beautiful, and there were none i found to be particularly controversial, but i could see how people saw them as controversial, especially the Mapplethorpe photos of naked children, they were called pornography.

The issue arose that pornographic photos are taken solely for the purpose of arrousal, they are not beautiful, nor send a message. Running with that definition of pornography, it enraged me that these photos were accused of being ponographic, because they could arrouse somebody.

I brought up the issue that if that really is the defintion of pornography, then ANY image is pornographic, because somewhere in the world, everybody has a fetish that corresponds with something that has photos taken of it. A picture of a gun could be a pornographic image because someone can get off to it. So if necessary, the argument could be made that any image can be considered pornographic.

Hello

I have not written in my blog in a long time…but it seems to get one or two views a day still lol.

On WordPress, you can start writing a post, and then save it for later if you don’t feel like posting it. I have 3 of them saved lol. So, i’ve been trying to write in here, but it just doesn’t work. The main reason is because of school, when i stopped writing in this blog, it was nearing the end of second semester, and assignments and tests were taking over. Now that the main school year is done, i still have 2 spring classes (maybe i’m a glutton for punishment) and i am working part-time until the classes finish. Still, it is very stressful, especially when i am required to from work to school. I have to bring my whole closet with me in the truck, and change in basically a 3 by 3 bathroom at work, and then make it to class in time.

 

I was just looking back at some of the old posts, and i was really grabbing at things to write about, or it seemed. I thought i would revisit the blog to see if there were actually still readers, and i have 2 more hours to kill before i go in to work, and i have been working on a painting for a few hours, so i thought i woud write a ‘comeback’ post, or something like it.

 

A lot has changed since i stopped blogging. I’ve met some new, truly incredible people that have helped me in an amazing way. They are people i hope will stay good friends. I’ve also had some great times with my friends who have come home from university, and hopefully many more fun times in the summer (camping…i want to go camping).

I have also lost some weight…i am almost down 40 pounds from my heaviest..something i am proud of, but it was not easy by any means, and it’s not going to get any easier.

and like i mentioned…work has started. This really does suck, but i was reuinited with some of the best coworkers ever, who have also become good friends. They really so make the job so much more enjoyable.

So…hopefully i will remember to continue blogging, as i know i will have some awesome stories to tell throughout the summer.